Unmasqued.

Did you put on your mask today? When you went out and faced the world what did the world see? Your face? Or were you hiding yet again under one of your myriad masks.

I think everybody wears masks. But it's not deceitful or anything it's perfectly natural. And different masks when they're with different people. Don't you feel like you behave differently when you're with different groups of friends? And haven't you seen others behave totally differently when they're not around you? You say two-face? I say nay, not even close. It just happens. Maybe it's to do with the expectation and assumptions of your friends, say, they think you're this kind of person so when you're with them you are, while with another group they think differently, and you conform too.

So who is the real you? All of them or none of them? If your personality if based on how you think others view you then it's not genuine is it? Or maybe the real you is a combination of all those masks, somewhere in between. If so then maybe no one ever gets to see the real you? Good thing or bad thing? Maybe it's a good thing. Maybe the real you isn't very nice at all, hence all these masks. And maybe love is when you meet someone whom you have no need to wear a mask in front of. Or maybe love is when you meet someone whom you're willing to put up this awesome mask for, all the time. So if the person does not love you it either means you're really hideous, really. Or your awesome mask isn't so awesome after all and you probably suck big time.

Sometimes you even drive people to run away from you. Maybe they see the real you and decide shit let's do an usain bolt. What do you do then? So maybe you never let anyone see the real you and you hide behind your masks and your walls. Sometimes you're looking everywhere for something to blame but the answer is right in front of you, if you would only care to look in a mirror. And even sleep now is no escape. I can't help but think when I'm awake but now my dreams are haunted even. Nobody likes to be reminded of their failings but everyday without fail I remind myself, consciously or even subconsciously. It sucks to wake up feeling like crap cause of the dream you dreamt. You can't even control it. Traitor brain. Traitor heart.

What happens when you know you're a loser? What steps do you take to be a winner? Oh well been wanting to write a story for a while but I'm feeling awful so maybe next time. Don't hurt yourself in anticipation. I'm going to dota.