Underachievers Please Try Harder.

I like lazy days with no expectation. I came across that line or something very much like it while in camp trawling through songs and lyrics but I can't seem to find it again.. Anyone who has any clue do tell me! Been listening recently to Empire of the Sun, Aqualung and some other stuff I can't recall. As I was saying however, lazy days are good. Even though you don't seem to have much of a life staring at your screen the whole day, at least you're at home and your family is in close proximity, you might not be seeing them a whole lot (since you're staring at the screen) but at least they get to see you! The world would be an awesome place if everyone could believe their family were happy to see them haha.

So yeah that's exactly what I've been doing, woke up at 1 and it's 4 now and I don't believe I'll be budging from my bed where I've strategically situated my laptop for maximum laziness. Not until I book in later tonight, that is. Sigh. So little of our weekends available to us (UNLESS YOU'RE AIRFORCE THAT IS!!) that I don't know what to do with it, and I end up not doing anything at all, which really isn't as bad as it sounds. At least I save $.

Life hasn't been doing much to me lately. Everything is so routine and all I think we're all becoming drones. Except of course for exciting tests and the like i.e. Chartwork test just yesterday which was destructive (for my ego) and also quite impossible. I think I'm becoming stupider haha, or maybe it's the paradoxical nature of tests in the SAF (I thought we were all garang soldiers) screwing around with me mind.

Also there's underway (equivalent of social night) which I have thus far been incapable of procuring a date for. Okay something interesting to add here. I just searched for the definition of procure online (I search for definitions of interesting words quite frequently how nerdy is that) and I came up with 1. To get by special effort; obtain or acquire 2. To bring about; effect AND 3. To obtain (a sexual partner) for another. (!!!!!!!!!) Most definitely not an innuendo I had intended lol.

Anyway. As I was saying I have no date which makes me ): so my contingency plan will have to kick in pretty soon. As a heads up to any of my female friends reading this.. I may just call one of you to have the absolute fortune! prestige! glamour! of being De's Date! Make that Desperate De's Date. Haha big sigh. You know a situation is terrible when the only thrill you get out of it is laughing at yourself. Dire indeed ):

Okay well nothing much else to add I guess. All the best ang for ezpz MCQs!

We're Too Cynical To Weep.

Happy national day everybody.

Great not to have to book in today (ha ha woon shin.) An unprecedented gift of block leave for us, that's just too awesome for words.

Just finished watching 2 movies on my best friend Funshion, plus Inception last night. That makes up for the serious dearth of quality movie time no thanks to army. Caught WALL-E and Taipei Exchanges featuring the excellent Gui Lun Mei haha. Absolute crush on her she's perfect. So is Zhou Xun, just in a different way. Hahah. Anyway I was really looking forward to seeing how good WALL-E was gonna be and I was pleasantly surprised.

And Inception needless to say was epic. Christopher Nolan is like some evil genius messing with our heads. Best director ever. Freaking master of his craft. Very interesting concept and really makes your mind whir even after you leave the cinema. And DiCaprio, Ellen Page, JGL? Absolutely brilliant. I'd definitely watch it again if I have the time and am not too lazy to step out of home.

And Cobb actually gave me an answer to iDream. Whatever our subconscious conjures, it never can match up to reality. We'll never dream up anything as complex as an actual person, with all his/her perfections and imperfections. That's why dreams are never enough.

Would you, given the option, choose to live in dreams? My own answer is no. I can't say for certain why not. Maybe because dreams are merely a form of escapism and nobody wants to believe they have to resort to that. Why not? Because we were made to hope. We hope that one day things work out right. We hope that one day we'll turn our lives around. We hope and we hope. And if we choose to dream, that hope will never be realized, not in reality. Something like that, alot of random stuff trawling through my brain messing up my thought process haha.

Anyway one of my new favourite songs is My Iron Lung by Radiohead. I was listening to it over and over in camp (cause there's nothing else to do in there) and it's brilliant. My title is an adaptation of one of the lines that was stuck in my head for ages. Thom Yorke comes up with some terribly depressing lyrics. And there was one bit in Taipei Exchanges that oddly enough had this same theme.

We were innocent (you might say naive) in our youth. We'd do things out of the goodness of our little hearts and without regard for anything else. Now we're older and everything has taken on a decidedly darker tone. You'd do a good deed and people question your motives. Altruism isn't believed anymore. You'd want to do a good deed but there are other considerations in your mind, how would it be perceived, how would it reflect on you, you know what I'm saying yes? The world thinks that the spirit of charity is no longer existent and who's to say they're wrong?

Cynical and desensitized. That's what most of us have become in this day and age. But I guess you can't change the world, much as you'd like to. The only person you can change for sure with one hundred percent certainty is yourself. I read somewhere that many people are unaffected by images of war and death and suffering now, thanks to the myriad images of them flashed on their television screens. We're too cynical to weep, not over the suffering of others, not anymore.

Anyway here I am 2 dota games later, and I can't really recall what else I had in mind. Oh right one thing, rock climbing is really fun. And tough. I have new found respect for my brother srsly, he's like a legend on that wall while I'm like.... Magikarp. Flail, flail. One day I'll evolve into GYARADOS (!!) though, you just watch it. I want to do this every weekend though, hopefully my bookout timings permit this.

Oh well I guess it just won't do to overextend yourself. Sometimes... enough is enough. You do what you can, and whatever the outcome is, you can't fault yourself. Yeah.

Okay more dota and then NDP which I'm forced to watch cause I have to write reflections about it. Seriously can you believe that? Love the homework-army paradox. See ya guys around.

I'm Ready To Be Heartbroken.

Hi guys just thought it'd be cool to do an update while in camp. CAT 1 atm so not sure if there's gonna be swim cat later. Ohwell just enjoy the good times while it lasts. Finally gonna be stepping out of camp later today, hopefully at an agreeable time right after dinner or something.

Listening to Camera Obscura since my sister insists that I have to and that it's almost a crime if I don't. Actually quite good haha

OKAY. This was my post as I left it 2 days ago cause lightning struck and my desktop in camp blacked out. So I'm not as cool as I'd hoped to be cause I didn't get to do an update in camp. What a n00b.

It's been a tiring weekend and I feel fatigued even now. Really should have slept that first night at home, I'm feeling the lack acutely. And gotta book-in right about now too. GAH. Weekend wasn't very accomplishing sigh. Oh well bye bye =/