We're Too Cynical To Weep.

Happy national day everybody.

Great not to have to book in today (ha ha woon shin.) An unprecedented gift of block leave for us, that's just too awesome for words.

Just finished watching 2 movies on my best friend Funshion, plus Inception last night. That makes up for the serious dearth of quality movie time no thanks to army. Caught WALL-E and Taipei Exchanges featuring the excellent Gui Lun Mei haha. Absolute crush on her she's perfect. So is Zhou Xun, just in a different way. Hahah. Anyway I was really looking forward to seeing how good WALL-E was gonna be and I was pleasantly surprised.

And Inception needless to say was epic. Christopher Nolan is like some evil genius messing with our heads. Best director ever. Freaking master of his craft. Very interesting concept and really makes your mind whir even after you leave the cinema. And DiCaprio, Ellen Page, JGL? Absolutely brilliant. I'd definitely watch it again if I have the time and am not too lazy to step out of home.

And Cobb actually gave me an answer to iDream. Whatever our subconscious conjures, it never can match up to reality. We'll never dream up anything as complex as an actual person, with all his/her perfections and imperfections. That's why dreams are never enough.

Would you, given the option, choose to live in dreams? My own answer is no. I can't say for certain why not. Maybe because dreams are merely a form of escapism and nobody wants to believe they have to resort to that. Why not? Because we were made to hope. We hope that one day things work out right. We hope that one day we'll turn our lives around. We hope and we hope. And if we choose to dream, that hope will never be realized, not in reality. Something like that, alot of random stuff trawling through my brain messing up my thought process haha.

Anyway one of my new favourite songs is My Iron Lung by Radiohead. I was listening to it over and over in camp (cause there's nothing else to do in there) and it's brilliant. My title is an adaptation of one of the lines that was stuck in my head for ages. Thom Yorke comes up with some terribly depressing lyrics. And there was one bit in Taipei Exchanges that oddly enough had this same theme.

We were innocent (you might say naive) in our youth. We'd do things out of the goodness of our little hearts and without regard for anything else. Now we're older and everything has taken on a decidedly darker tone. You'd do a good deed and people question your motives. Altruism isn't believed anymore. You'd want to do a good deed but there are other considerations in your mind, how would it be perceived, how would it reflect on you, you know what I'm saying yes? The world thinks that the spirit of charity is no longer existent and who's to say they're wrong?

Cynical and desensitized. That's what most of us have become in this day and age. But I guess you can't change the world, much as you'd like to. The only person you can change for sure with one hundred percent certainty is yourself. I read somewhere that many people are unaffected by images of war and death and suffering now, thanks to the myriad images of them flashed on their television screens. We're too cynical to weep, not over the suffering of others, not anymore.

Anyway here I am 2 dota games later, and I can't really recall what else I had in mind. Oh right one thing, rock climbing is really fun. And tough. I have new found respect for my brother srsly, he's like a legend on that wall while I'm like.... Magikarp. Flail, flail. One day I'll evolve into GYARADOS (!!) though, you just watch it. I want to do this every weekend though, hopefully my bookout timings permit this.

Oh well I guess it just won't do to overextend yourself. Sometimes... enough is enough. You do what you can, and whatever the outcome is, you can't fault yourself. Yeah.

Okay more dota and then NDP which I'm forced to watch cause I have to write reflections about it. Seriously can you believe that? Love the homework-army paradox. See ya guys around.