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This is pretty unfair. Just woke up after spending the night half in zouk and half in the rain, much to my sorrow! The unfairness being that I kind of find myself feeling slightly down, despite not getting high in the slightest last night! Meh. I did have fun though, first time going out with the gang since... probably that sucky night at supper club haha! Well happy bday (or graduation??) bel!

I guess it's also cause yesterday I was just contemplating my startling averageness. Contemplating only because while in the past I might have moped about or worried about it (it's not a topic new to me), the onset of age and I hope maturity means that I treat my normalcy with a certain amount of acceptance now.

95% of the world is average. Well, 90 maybe, or 80, if you consider that there are people who are below average. But most everyone you know, and meet, is average. It takes something truly special to not be average, which I realize I probably lack. I used to agonize over this lack, thinking: why aren't I special? (while thinking, secretly of course, that I somehow was. as all teenagers do, surely?) Decently intelligent, decent at sports, okay at school, sometimes humorous, etc. Not too shabby, but none too shiny either. But now I know that's perfectly fine, it's something that 95% of the world faces, and no one else is silly enough to whine about it either so.. We average people just have to accept that we're average and get on with our average lives. What does it matter that we're average? We'll still get our average jobs, fall in average loves, and finally die our average deaths. I've still got a life to live.

Possibly this sadness stems also from my IPPT yesterday!!!! The saddest performance of my life, and I blame prawn noodles. Didn't think I was gonna do my ippt so I ate, and hey presto 10mins after consumption I find myself starting (I jest, I mean acing) my stations. Then came 2.4. Then came the pain. Oh, the agony. I'm surprised Lilo didn't appear. (Oh yeah I just made the most random Lilo and Stitch reference ever.) Run was no go. 10:17mins of misery later and I find myself the sorrowful recipient of an IPPT SIGHVER. The shame. Hopefully I get to re-take my ippt sometime in the next few weeks haha, although if I still don't get gold I'm hardly likely to have another bowl of prawn noodles for a scapegoat..

Also watched an amazing movie called Disconnect yesterday. (this despite my sister's lukewarm reception, which threw me for a loop.) But I'm sticking with my guns, and calling it here: One of the best movies this year for me for sure. Surprisingly.. male, however, now that I think about it. It is quite a masculine piece, actually. Funny how I've never thought about stuff like that until attending law school. Nonetheless, an excellent expose of the dark side of all this vaunted inter-connectivity, a cautionary tale for this day and age. And the theme of disconnect, between husband and wife, fathers and sons, nothing short of impressive.

Also spent about half a day watching the Capital Children's Choir and PS22 Choir, cause I am a youtube addict. And because they are insanely talented. And I have no life. Well..

I guess in other happenings, I tried to walk from Tiong Bahru to Clarke Quay cause I'm coolio, but I went mainstream and walked instead down the green line to outram park and thereafter to chinatown. Kind of directionally retarded, apparently. Did meet my sister for some Little India and Mustafa Center action, however, so all was not lost.

Also met yiying yesterday, which probably could have gone a lot worse considering we've not seen each other for.. 3 or 4 years now?! It's always nice meeting old friends. You get this little reassurance that, you know what, despite all these years, despite all the things you've done (or not done), the things you've been through, maybe a part of you remains the same after all. That maybe, you've managed to stay true to yourself in spite of what the world's inflicted on you all these years. We must have spent what, 5 hours at tiong bahru bakery? A fantastic little place, much more homely and relax-y than the raffles place one, and I've got a slight crush on that door.. Best door 2013.

How many more friends do you get to make in your life? Good friends, close friends, cherished friends. How many more friends will you lose to life? To careers, girl/boyfriends, marriage, family, migration, various other commitments (and thank god we do not yet worry about disease and death). Few and far between, real friends are. So anytime you get to reconnect with a friend, it is a happy thing! It doesn't even take much, just the willingness and some money for coffee really.

Which is also why I found myself in zouk for the second time in 2 weeks (shocking, I know.) last night, because friends matter.

Alright I'm ending here, I'm trying my bestestness to be more concise and short and sharp and to the point and not keep beating about the bush like a beater of bushes.

Just another one of your average posts.