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Today started off bad ): First I woke up late then I was so satisfied with myself for buying the fruits and then what? I GOT FLAMED FOR BUYING SO LITTLE!!!!!!!!!!! BY EVERYONE!!!!!!! ):):):):):): Now you all think back and say, wah de yan so smart buy so little. Seriously. So. Smart.

Although it was such a sad beginning ): it quickly got better! (: After (too much) food cheating touch opponents and lousy frisbee players..... We had an incredible camwhore session! INCREDIBLE. Is it possible we've turned gay! Yay! :D:D (note the many gay smilies)

Anyway dinner and lepak after that was good too. Many thanks guys and girls for a great day! No octagon or whatever other rip-offs, circle is win!

After that I went to cathay to find S14 and celebrate jianwen and chinting's birthday. Haven't met any of my classmates since probably prom. But it was fun we just sat there and kjw for a bit before leaving for home since the pool place is closed for renovation.

All in all an awesome day with awesome people! Work tomorrow. And I'm supposed to wake up at 5+ so that I can send zhikai off with the rest. Guess I'm not sleeping that would be a bad idea. Gonna have to survive on coffee and willpower for the whole day. Working till 9. Wonder if there's gonna be mahjong after that.

I don't really feel like sleeping just yet anyway, and I've had this thought bouncing around my head for a while. Not gonna be elaborate just trying to flesh it out.

Let's Brick Up

He's thinking of what she said. "Let's brick up." He doesn't understand but there's nothing he can do. He is dazed and confused and hurt and upset and angry and sad. Very sad. He lays the first slab. By doing that he realizes he's going to do as she says, and he's going to complete what he's started. He lays the second, and third brick. He hums softly, sadly, under his breath, the tune to a love song that he can no longer hear without also hearing her voice. The first layer is complete. That one line of Hey Jude is put on repeat in his head. "Take a sad song, and make it better." Na na na nananana, nananana, hey JUDE! It doesn't seem so difficult now, the bricks seem to have gotten lighter somehow. And there he goes, layer upon layer. And then his feet are doing a little jig, and his head is bobbing to the tune of I Am The Walrus! Goo goo g'joob! And then he begins giggling and is laughing so hard he drops a brick or two. He can barely contain his mirth. It's all making perfect sense to him and everything feels so... right, somehow. It is the last layer now and he has to go up on tiptoes and struggle to lay each brick. And like a machine he continues brick after brick because it doesn't matter anymore. Not his sadness or his happiness or anything. He set the last brick and then nothing mattered anymore. His wall of bricks set in mortar and tears was complete and nothing could get at him. The world and none of the people in it could affect him now. "Let's brick up," she said.

The end.

It randomly occurred to me how break up sounds like brick up and how fitting the similarity was. When you break up with someone you distance yourself and put layers between you and the other person. You stop seeing each other. That's one layer. Stop contacting each other. That's another layer. And slowly you build up this wall this chasm that's impossible to surmount. And it's a good thing too, cause that wall protects you. If you never get out you never get hurt and that's a good thing, no? But then sometimes you meet someone who just oh so casually tears down your carefully constructed walls and then oh so casually tears you apart and then leaves. That's life.

And oh no i'm very tired all of a sudden what if i sleep and don't wake up in half an hour and don't send zk off? and then skip work yet again oh no i have one day of work ahead of me. i think i shall leave house early to get some coffee at bbmac my old haunt. and i'm wondering why that bag? like a taunt. haha you tried and you failed. damn sian i don't get it. oh well mr clean up has to clean up his own mess now.

Okay my brother is waking up now he has to go to school I'll go bathe and leave the house soon cause I'm gonna fall asleep anytime. Good morning goodbye.