Welp. What a way to end a pretty awful, almost comically bad week. Not my proudest, for sure. All that fatigue after staying in for the past 5 days. Got caught up in so many silly, pointless arguments (euphemestically, "discussions") which I really shouldn't have, too. Pretty frustrated with myself over so many points over the past few days. This isn't me.
Sometimes you feel like all you need is a win, huh? Big one, small one; in whatever area of your life. Anything. Anything to halt the slide. Oblivion beckons sometimes, doesn't it? The losses are mounting and I'm beginning to lose my feet, a little bit at a time.
It rained today. Wasn't it so annoying? The exasperation as the rain, instead of thinning, got even heavier. As water began seeping everywhere. As your clothes and your shoes get wetter and wetter. How bothersome...
What a life! When was the last time you had time enough to really look out in the middle of a rainstorm, this tropical phenomenon, and not feel penned in, not feel perturbed by it? It is its own strange beauty. In the way it obscures and masks everything. In the shadowy half shapes it forms of the most concrete objects (buildings and lamposts and schools and churches). All these tantalizing possibilities, no?
Just reading The Harmony Silk Factory and have been absolutely lapping it up. What a superbly assured debut. Not a bad way to see out the rest of the week at all.
Thankful, also, for the opportunity to celebrate a dear friend's birthday over supper! Wouldn't have ended my self-imposed 5 day "residential phase" any other way. Despite all the crankiness and tiredness and frustration from days such as these.
And so.
Live through this and you won't look back.
明天會更好 ! (Thanks for the memories, kids.) (Haha gross, I know, but still....)
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